Thank you, I appreciate it. I felt so alone so having all your help means an incredible amount to me. Just knowing I am not alone is extremely beneficial. I am now fine during the day. However morning & night time I feel dreadful. I gaze out the window at night wondering where he’s sleeping & if he’s safe then in the morning wake up & wonder if he’s ok. I just keep telling myself it’s his choice and there’s nothing I can do about it. I remind him every day through message that I love him and am here to support him when he’s ready. I am firmly standing by the decision that he can never live in our home again. The 3 other children need a stable environment. I have to keep thinking we must let them go and with hope they’ll find the right path. I know you must all be as equally heart broken and am glad to have found this site. X
