Hi KF,
I can’t even begin to understand how this all feels, you are such a fighter! There is somewhere you can get lots of help and support, and that is The Icarus Trust. You will have a family friend to speak to, and they can sign post you to the right counsellor. You can contact them via email on info@icarustrust.org or visit the website at http://www.icarustrust.org. It’s free of charge and they are fantastic.
I wish you all the best.