Reading your story has made me feel sad but also inspired. You were so brave caring for and supporting your husband through really tough times. I am glad that you have found this site and hope it helps you.
I work for a charity called Icarus Trust who help people who have been affected by addiction. We offer a free service and if you contact us, we could put you in touch with one of our Family Friends. These are trained volunteers who have experienced living with addiction in their own lives. It might help you to talk through how you are feeling with one of them and they could help you find further support if you need it.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I really hope that talking to people who understand helps you. Good luck!
