Hi An,
I’m sorry that you are dealing with a really hard situation. You sound incredibly strong but are facing hard choices.
The Icarus Trust is a charity that offers one to one support from experienced trained volunteers (called Family Friends )who will talk things through with you. The family Friends have experienced living with addiction in their own families so it may help you to talk to someone who could share experiences and signpost you to help that is available.
Its a free service so should be worth a try.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck! I hope that you can find some support to help you deal with what you are going through.
