Hi Maryjoan,
I can see that your husband’s drinking is really hard for you to come to terms with, and it often helps to talk through your worries and feelings with people that have had similar experiences. I work for a charity called The Icarus Trust which tries to support people like yourself who are dealing with a loved one’s addiction. If you contact us you could be put in touch with one of our ‘Family Friends’. These are experienced trained volunteers who would understand the issues you are facing. Talking with one of these might help you to find a way ahead as well as signpost other services that might help your husband.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope that you will find this helpful. Good luck.
