I know what you mean it’s always our fault and the hurtful things they say just keep coming. Although they say it they never mean it its just a way of dealing with their own anger. It’s doesn’t help much to know that as it still hurts but i’m sure he still loves you. We have been trying to get help for years but the doc’s etc will only look at the drinking as the problem and not the depression that came first. Don’t give up hope, our hope is all they have.
