This must be so hard for you and you must feel so torn. It sounds like you could really do with someone to talk to who would understand just how you are feeling and what you are having to deal with. The Icarus Trust is a charity that supports the families and friends of addicts because we know how hard it is if you are in this situation. We have very experienced trained volunteers who you could be put in touch with if you contact us.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck. I hope this helps.
