You are not alone hun, there are so many parents whose kids are addicted ,whether it’s alcohol, drugs etc. I felt exactly the same when i found out…I didn’t want anyone to know. It took me a few years to come to terms with his addictions,Find out as much as I could about it, and the biggest thing was to stop enabling ….that meant no handing over money, locking away valuables, and never under estimating his manipulation. The biggest thing is he must want it…and that’s the hard part. We can support our kids, but just don’t make it easy for them..and I say that with a heavy heart, because even after my son nearly died through his addiction, the light bulb still didn’t go on for him….he does just enough to get by, so I’m now at the point that until he really wants it, I will take a back seat and love him from afar….stand tall, set boundaries, and stick to them…and stop feeling embarrassed…this is his addiction not yours…let him own it! Sending hugs x