Hi Liz. You must never blame yourself for this. It is sad but it is his choice to do what he does. It’s his choice that he puts it before you and your future together. Its his choice as well to ignore the impact it has on you both. As for his reaction I know it too well through my own situation, it makes you doubt yourself, it makes you feel bad like your in the wrong. Please don’t ever doubt yourself and be mindful when things like this happen so you can protect yourself. Addiction does affect the adictee but you have a choice as to whether it affects you. In my mind there is no excuse for using drugs or alcohol in a way which is detrimental to those around you. Addiction can almost become an excuse. If your partner doesn’t see this or doesn’t want to listen try writing down your feelings. Tell him how it affects you, tell him what you want and need from him. It’s easy not to listen but he can’t ignore your words. It is sad but if he can’t see this or escape it you can. Trust yourself and never doubt yourself or what you feel. If easier than through the blog my email is gleofinch@gmail.com. your not alone.
