Hi Gem,
I’m so sad for you, it is heart breaking what you are going through. I work for a charity called The Icarus Trust. We support the families of people like yourself who are trying to deal with a loved ones addiction. We have experienced trained volunteers called Family Friends that you could speak with if you think that would help you. Sometimes just talking to people who understand helps make sense off things and could also signpost you to what other help is out there.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I really hope that you can get some support for yourself. Keep strong!
