Hi Harrietemily
I’m sorry to read your story and wonder if you would like to talk to someone who would understand what you are dealing with. I work for a charity called The Icarus Trust that supports the families of addicts. We have experienced trained volunteers called Family Friends who you could talk to. They may be able to answer your questions and help you to find a way ahead. This is a free service.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope that you can get some help. Stay strong and keep safe!