I’m so sad to read your story. So many family members are affected by an addicts behavior. If you felt that it would help to talk I recommend getting in touch with The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that supports the friends and families of addicts, people like yourself and have experienced trained volunteers called family friends who you could talk with. It might help you to deal with all the conflicting feelings you have about your son and see a way ahead.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
Take care and good luck!
