I feel really sad reading your story and hearing the affect that you dad’s addiction is having on you and your mum.
If you would like to talk with someone who would understand please contact The Icarus Trust. we are a charity that supports the family and friends of addicts and we offer a free service called Family Friends. These are our trained experienced volunteers who you could be put in touch with. Talking with one of them might help you find a way ahead.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope that this helps.
