Hi Leanne – Sorry I’ve taken so long to reply, I forgot my password! I used to be like you and worry about things like him dying and then, as the years went by, I sometimes wished he would (awful, I know). Now I am just numb to it and think ‘Let him get on with it – just don’t let him involve me in his dramas’. One of the hardest things for me has been having to cope with the amount of attention he craves. Another one is how I have been tarred with the same brush and have gradually lost my standing in the community because of his addiction and his actions. I recently phoned a charity helpline and will never, ever call one again. They wanted to know his name, my name, where we lived – all sorts. I didn’t feel I could really offload. Please stay in touch and I hope you find yourself out of the rut soon. Belinda
