Daisy and shezzie
I am currently dealing with my own struggles of a similar nature. Me and my partner are 6 and a half years into or relationship and although he’s had clean periods eventually he’s demons take over again.
I get blamed a lot of the time when he want to use not directly but he causes problems so he can.
He is however attending NA meetings these are free confidential and open to anyone who wants to stop. You don’t have to be clean when you go all they ask is you’re willing to try,
When my partner attend he feels fantastic the support network is great and unlike me they will never roll their eyes when he says he wants to use there is no judgement whatsoever. He does still relapse and it feels incredibly hurtful and personal to me especially when he blames me for him doing it for example I’ve been moody and making him feel on edge. But every time he returns to he’s meetings he gets a little further along the path to get clean and I get a little prouder. I’ve had many of times I’ve seriously considered leaving but I’ve started doing more and more research and as much as I want to be involved and help I’ve come to understand it’s not my place only he can do this and only when he’s ready and that may take a while but he is really willing to give all he can.
I hope you all find the right help its so tough for families too x