Hello,
Thank you for sharing your story and it is good to read that things are a little better.
If you would like to talk with people who understand what you are going through please contact The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that supports the family and friends of people with addictive behaviours. Talking to one of our trained and experienced volunteers might help you.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck.