Hi Susan,
Thanks for posting your story.
if you would like to talk with people who would understand what you are having to deal with please contact The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that provides support to people who are coping with the addictions of a family member.
If you get in touch, one of our experienced trained volunteers will talk to you and maybe help you to work things out.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope that this helps.
