18 months of living hell

Last summer , we found out our 19 year old was using cocaine frequently. It got that bad, that i had drug dealers who we thought were his ‘friends’ contacting me.
At the beginning of this year, we thought through love and support , he had made a complete turnaround for the better. He got a job, was earning more than enough to still socialise with his nicer friends who he had dropped whilst in the wrong crowd, and only went out, so we thought, once a week.
I was extremely suspicious as he was spending his earnings in one night but originally believed that he was buying everyone drinks. My iPad and his iPhone which I paid for went missing and he denied all
knowledge .
Luckily I’m very computer savvy and decided for piece of mind to get into his laptop where I saw the drug abuse never stopped but I couldn’t understand how he wasn’t showing any signs as before , such as the not wanting to work, the sleeping all day, coming in when the youngest kids were getting ready for school , the pupils dilating.

None of it makes any sense , yet it was clear that the debts had been mounting up again . The messages in the computer were very clear.

Even though he has been caught out again, he has shown no remorse, no apology, nothing. It’s bizarre.

The only option he has had this time round is to get professional help and that is what we have put into place this week.

I’ve no idea about the future at this point but like all other parents , we are in a world that we never have wanted to understand. My son had good education, did well at school and is normally a very kind and loving son and brother . We can only hope that his family mean to much to him and hope that he sees that the original love and support was not enough so professional help is the only way forward as he has fooled us twice now.

You honestly think you know the signs but they get clever and somehow have the ability to pretend life is normal. I’m still crushed that he feels nothing has happened or changed, but for the rest of the families sake, we have to carry on and just hope he comes out the other end for the better post treatment.

I’m grateful that I found this site and now know I’m not alone.