Hi,
Thank you for posting. May be you would find it useful to speak with someone who would understand what you are going through. I work for a charity called The Icarus Trust that provides support for people, like yourself, who are dealing with the impact of someone else’s addiction. If you contacted us, one of our trained experienced volunteers would listen to you. They would be able to tell you what other support is available and help you find a way ahead.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck.