[cant-take-no-more]

Oh hunni…you are a great mother, and your son has been through alot to get to the point he is at now…BUT his behaviour is not right…and to continue to give him money just means he continue to do drugs…Im not surprised he is angry, he has been let down badly by those at school that should have looked out for him…Have you thought about private therapy for him????? I too have felt like getting in the car and driving away from it all, but thats not the answer…I have stopped enabling my son..which means I give him nothing…Its hard, but when the light went on I knew it was the right thing to do……Is there anyone you can confide in….just having someone to talk to can help, or check out parent groups……It does make it easier to cope..sending hugs xxxx

[franticmum]

hi love I totally agree with my good friend above, we have both been where you are many times, I too have looked back wondering where I went wrong, the truth is as I have come to realise I did nothing to cause my sons actions, I have 3 sons who all had a stable loving family growing up, my husband and I have been married now for over 37 yrs, neither of us have ever smoked let alone tried drugs, I am very proud to say that 2 of my sons are now married with children of their own ( this is my main lifesaver what keeps me going) sadly my other son from leaving school drifted from job to job he started smoking cannabis then moved on to harder drugs I wont go into details as Ive already posted most of them on here over the last year, I will say that since finding this site although the s**t is still happening I find comfort in being able to connect with people going through the same, and I have a very good counsellor who I am able to call upon when times are really tough, I also have now stopped enabling my son and he knows that handouts are not available any more from any of the family, he at the moment is truly on his own, he knows where we are if he decides to give that way of life up, its very hard and my heart pounds every time the phone rings but what he does now is his choice and I will not be any part of it, I hope I’m not sounding too hard because truly thats not the case its just that for nearly 18 yrs now I have tried everything to help him, please access all the professional help you are offered because just maybe they will be able to help, as I have found out you cannot live someones life for them he has to do it himself,
I hope I have helped in some small way, I too am a rambler, taking care of yourself is the most important thing for you to do, you deserve a life too,
take care hunny, keep strong
love n cyber hugs
Sue Xxx

[trapped]

You are both so lovely. Thank you for taking the time to read my post and reply. Both your replies made me cry. I have no-one to talk to so your words of support and encouragement touched my heart. It just hurts so much :'( I don’t feel strong enough to deal with this. I would rather fall asleep and not wake up than watch him do this to himself :'(
I will try to find my way round this site and read your stories, but another night I think, when I’m not feeling quite so fragile. Because everything is so raw at the moment that I’m crying for all of us :'(
Thank you for caring enough to respond, I really appreciate it xx

[milan-heavy]

Hi I am Chris and like you all I am looking for advice and if i can reciprocate I am happy to do so. Trapped if you prefer this name so be it, the first thing you need to understand is that your story is one that many, perhaps millions of us in different languages share, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. your son is like so many of our sons and have become I am dealing with a step son who since 2002 was thown to me when his mum became tired (with reason of his addiction) and then while I tidied him up and got him back on the rails an SMS would arrive, come home and he would leave until he was thown out again and guess who picked him up at the railway station or the crossroads at midnight, me, just like you. You cannot give him money, it will be used for drugs even €10 euro is enough. I sent mine away this weekend having stolen 2 iPhones and some money (actually quite a lot) Sunday night to get heroin while our families here in Italy were watching the World Cup Final. He thought I did, nor Ana my partner that he was taking his Minias but we went to check up on him and he had stolen €50 from her handbag thinking he could get back go to bed with “a bad stomach” before we returned home from our next door neighbours and we would not notice. NAH wrong mate! I went to check if he was Ok but no he was gone car keys money, i told him 1-2 but not three, expelled now what do we do with him, tonight he sleeps under the trees in Northern Italy, that is his choice with 2 packs of cigarettes and a car he stole from his Mum, could we do something more for him, yes i could but i would welcome your thoughts, thanks.

[cant-take-no-more]

I think this is your wake up call Hunni…your body obviously was trying to tell you something…it only takes one time to experience such a negative unhealthy effect…go to the festival, and enjoy the time without any stimulant…be safe Hunni x

[icarus-trust]

Hi Danni,
Would you like to talk to someone completely confidentially about your anxiety and mixed feelings about drugs, who may be able to help you? Sometimes its easier to share your problems with someone you don’t know.
I work for a charity called The Icarus Trust. We have experienced trained volunteers, called Family Friends, who talk to people in similar situations to yourself. A Family Friend may be able to help you with the anxiety you are feeling.
Please contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrst.org
I really hope that this will help you.

[cant-take-no-more]

Hi kath, I can feel your sadness jump out of your post….I totally understand where you are coming from, and when a family member is going through addiction we just want to keep them safe and save them,,,,I did it for afew years, until my health was suffering and my family was suffering…it really sounds like you literally can’t go on, and why should you…sounds to me like this family member is calling all the shots… Take back your life Hunni, before it’s too late…this is their addiction, not yours…it’s your home,so why are you moving out when things get bad.?i think you’ve answered your own question Hunni….make the changes, and set boundaries….educate yourself, get to some groups for families, and look after you! Drugs take away the person we love and leave a stranger..it’s heart breaking…..I’m at the stage now that I love my son from afar…he never asks for money cause we don’t give him anything, he doesn’t live with us, and we will only see him when he isn’t under the influence of anything….I love my son completely, but only he can change…..

[kath]

THE ABOVE COMMENT IS SPAM. Not sure how to report it

[icarus-trust]

Hi Kath,
What a very hard time you are having. I was wondering if you have anyone that is supporting you. I work for a charity called The Icarus Trust that is set up for the family and friends of people with addictions. If you feel you would like some support for yourself you could talk with one of experienced trained volunteers called Family Friends. Talking with someone who understands what you are going through might help you to make sense of how you are feeling.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope that things improve for you.

[milan-heavy]

Hi I am Chris and like you all I am looking for advice and if i can reciprocate I am happy to do so. Trapped if you prefer this name so be it, the first thing you need to understand is that your story is one that many, perhaps millions of us in different languages share, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. your son is like so many of our sons and have become I am dealing with a step son who since 2002 was thown to me when his mum became tired (with reason of his addiction) and then while I tidied him up and got him back on the rails an SMS would arrive, come home and he would leave until he was thown out again and guess who picked him up at the railway station or the crossroads at midnight, me, just like you. You cannot give him money, it will be used for drugs even €10 euro is enough. I sent mine away this weekend having stolen 2 iPhones and some money (actually quite a lot) Sunday night to get heroin while our families here in Italy were watching the World Cup Final. He thought I did, nor Ana my partner that he was taking his Minias but we went to check up on him and he had stolen €50 from her handbag thinking he could get back go to bed with “a bad stomach” before we returned home from our next door neighbours and we would not notice. NAH wrong mate! I went to check if he was Ok but no he was gone car keys money, i told him 1-2 but not three, expelled now what do we do with him, tonight he sleeps under the trees in Northern Italy, that is his choice with 2 packs of cigarettes and a car he stole from his Mum, could we do something more for him, yes i could but i would welcome your thoughts, thanks.

[trapped]

Hi Chris, I’ve read your post a few times now and have been staring at a blank text box not knowing what or how to respond. I am certainly not in a position to give any advice. But for what it’s worth I feel for you and your dilemma. I have total admiration for the fact that you have done as much as you already have for your ‘stepson’ when you are no longer even with his mother. What a wonderful father you are. Your stepson is so incredibly lucky to have you. It’s early days for me, I’m still of the mindset of desperately wanting and trying to change my sons behaviour. All in vain maybe but I’m still trying to make sense of everything and accept what’s happening. So, right now for me the idea of giving up and walking away (whilst in my thoughts) in reality is not an option. I’m just not strong enough and see my son as being too vulnerable. I’m afraid if I push him away and if he gives up because of that that I would be totally responsible and consumed with guilt. I’m sorry Chris that I cannot offer you any wise words of advice but I wanted you to at least know that I’m thinking of you x

[cant-take-no-more]

Addicts steal, sorry but it’s fact….he has 3 children who will be left in the midst of his addiction…..I’m so sorry that things haven’t worked out, but I fear for his kids big time…….you say you have a son, I think you should stop and think about the impact on him, kids deserve an environment where they are priority…and believe me at the moment it sounds like he is just about keeping things together…..not sure how long he can maintain that! I’m not saying give up,but living with an addict is frightening, scary, and a feeling like walking on egg shells…..all the clues are there…..only he can want to get help……only you know what to do, and I hope you find your answer……I wouldn’t want any kid to be around that situation….hugs and take care of yourself and your son, and his kids xx

[icarus-trust]

Hi Sammy,
This must be such a hard thing for you, having to deal with your relationship break up, as well as your worry about the impact on your son and the other kids.
I work for a charity called The Icarus Trust. We have trained people called Family Friends who are experienced in listening and supporting people like yourself to find a way through situations like this this. If you contact the Trust you would be assigned a Family Friend who you could talk to in complete confidence.
Please contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrst.org
I really hope that this will help you.

[misslcm]

Just read the post by Trapped and it has me in floods of tears as it is identical to mines except my son is 20 and has had drug issues for around 3 years. I honestly thought we were over the worst until recently when I discovered he was now dabbling in cocaine. I can totally relate to you Trapped as I do the same as you with your son, we talk, we cry and he opens up but within days its all back to silent treatment and secrets. I also work in healthcare and had to be signed off by the doc as just cant focus anymore. My thoughts are with all of you 🙂 x

[icarus-trust]

Feel very sorry that you are having to face such hard choices.
You are not on your own in feeling like you do and It sounds like you could do with talking to others who have been there too. The Icarus Trust is a charity who support families who have to live and deal with addiction. We offer a range of free services which could include putting you in touch with a trained volunteer called a Family Friend who would talk to you in confidence and try to help. These Family Friends have all experienced dealing with addiction in their own families so would understand what you are facing. You might find talking things through with someone who has been there and knows what support is available, helps you.
Please contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrst.org
I really hope that this helps.Good luck!

[emziemelv]

thank you icarus trust, yes feel like i need some help even if it is just talking to someone who will understand what im going through. i will visit and have a chat.

[icarus-trust]

So glad to hear that. Am sure its a good idea to give it a go. Really hope it helps.

[nj]

Hi, I wish I could talk to you, I’m in the exact same situation and I don’t know what to do, have been with him for 16 yrs and I have just had my second child 1 month ago, I can’t cope with the lies and constant stress, but I just keep hanging on in the hope that he will be ok again, he’s the love of my life but has been a monster for the last 3 years. Feel broken and so week. They can only help themselves and there is nothing we can do, however if you feel like I do then you probably try to control the situation the best you can, and all that does is place un-imaginable stress on us. I wish I had the strength to put my needs first, but I don’t think I do

[emziemelv]

Hi yes i do feel exactly the same! All i seem to hear from my husband is this is the last time, i will never go out again. N i always give him that extra time to prove himself and it never endsi have got to the point now were ive told him he’s got over Xmas to prove himself or he’s gone!! I really don’t want him on the streets at xmas. But yes i think its time i put my needs first too, he is the love of my life but i am miserable. Having people to talk to on here that are going through the same thing does help a bit.

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