[eddie]

I’ve been with my boyfriend on and off for 11 years now. Every time we split is because of his addiction. He is not violent. But I can see it changing him. He used everything. He does it for few days and then he stops. And he does it again. I don’t know what to do. I just found brown powder and it looks like he’s been snorting it. He hides it from me. And he never does, he always comes clean and he tells me what did he use. I’m afraid it’s heroin. I don’t know what to do. He is so young. And we’ve been trough so much. I don’t want to leave him. He gets very depressed and suicidal. His dad committed suicide 5 years ago and that’s when all this hell started. I want to help him. I’m afraid I’m gonna loose him. But this is completely consuming our life. He gets us to the point where we dont have money for food. Can anyone share their experience? And is the brown powder really heroin? It was in a little bag. I know it is, I’m just lying to myself. He sleeps for days and then he disappears for days and when he comes home it’s so sad. He looks drained and skinny and just bad. I love him so much, this is tearing me apart. I tried leaving him but I can’t. I don’t want to. I want to help him. But I don’t know what to do.

[icarus-trust]

I’m sorry to hear how difficult life is for you and your boyfriend. I’m sure it must feel really hard to know what to do and I wonder if you would like to talk with someone who would understand and maybe help you to know what to do next.

At Icarus Trust we provide support for people like you who are having to deal with a partner’s addiction because we know how hard this is. If you think it would would help please get in touch.

You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrst.org

Good luck.

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