Im sorry to hear you are struggling.
I am the parent of a user of cocaine and i know all the excuses / promises you must be telling.
i have watched him destroy himself over christmas – he is now in rehab as this was the last straw as this is destroying me and my relationship also.
i do beleive that talking to other users will help you but in the end you need to do this for yourself, do you have any problems from the past you are hiding from?