[jwheeler81]

My husband of 21 years passed away from a Fentanyl overdose a month ago! To say my kids and I are in grieving hell is an understatement! This man was the center of my world my everything my person my love and he’s gone and it could have been prevented! I’m devastated I’m angry! I don’t understand why! He was clean for 5 months and all he did then was pain pills. So for him to go straight to heroin then die from a fentanyl overdose has my mind boggled! So many questions still unanswered! Ive never seen such a drastic change in him as I did starting in Jan! He became a habitual liar! Took all money for drugs, was extremely distant, cold, and hateful! He was a monster when he would withdrawal. He was irritable without the drugs yet irritable with them! Would tell him he would go to rehab when he was high but once the DT’s started that drug was all he wanted. I’m being told heroin takes you to a deep dark place which you feel you can’t escape that your stuck and the thought of my husband feeling that way breaks my heart! I want to know what broke him in the first place to start down that dark hole! We were happy yes he lost his job but not a month later he was offered an even better job with higher pay but it was out of state about 6 hours away and he ended up turning it down I knew that wasn’t like him. Heroin turned that job down, heroin destroyed everything! My families life is forever changed from this! It’s affecting my health now. I don’t know how to go on without me! I know he’s at peace now but I’m definitely not! I don’t know how to get over this! His choices cost him his life and me him! I’m forever broken! I need closure but he took the answers with him. If love could have saved him he would’ve lived forever!

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