Hi Jay Fay, I’m so sorry to hear that your mum has passed away, especially under the circumstances, you must be devastated.
I know the Adfam forum homepage and Icarus trust offer advice and support. Perhaps there is bereavement counselling available that could help you?
Is there someone close who you can talk to?
I think it would help to talk to someone, addiction is a horrible disease. I’m sure your mum loved you and knew you were doing your best for her
My son has alcohol and cocaine addictions, so I know what it can do to a family.
Take care and seek some advice and support Jay Fay, time to look after yourself now.
Sending you love ❤
Lx