Hi Shortcake77, thanks for posting. Really sorry to hear about your situation with your mother which must be so difficult for you.
If you ever need someone to talk to you can phone Samaritans for free on 116 123, they are available 24/7.
Nacoa also have a telephone helpline and loads of helpful information for children of alcohol dependent parents, phone 0800 358 3456 or visit their website: https://nacoa.org.uk/
Take care and best wishes,
Adfam