I am 21 years old and have been living with an alcoholic parent up until this year when I’ve moved to university. I have two younger brothers 18 and 15. We live with our mother as she struggles with alcoholism and its gotten much worse over the last 5 years or so. She drinks 2-3 bottles of wine most nights, occasionally vodka too and tends to mix this with diazepam. The outcome makes her completely verbally abusive to everyone around her and has caused our family immeasurable pain. She has attended rehab before but it didn’t work, countless therapies etc which still haven’t worked. She refuses to go to rehab again as she will only attend a private one and we don’t have the money for this. Not only does this cause me, my siblings and my father immense trauma and hurt, it also makes her severely depressed and unable to function. She lies constantly to my face about being drunk even though I know she is, even swearing on my life a few times. I have tried everything, being angry, being hurt, being patient and kind, sensible, literally everything possible. It causes suicidal thoughts for me often as I struggle with unstable mood disorder and depression. I am completely broken and have no idea what to do.