Hello Gem12345,
I can relate. I’ve been with my partner nearly 4 years, and he is an alcoholic. We have been through a great 8 months of him being sober, but unfortunately he is back to drinking again. One of the many things I have learned, is that addicts can be extremely manipulative. You have to rise above it. It’s not your fault. He is a grown man, who makes his own decisions. You are not responsible for his recovery. He is the only person who can do it, for himself. Trust me, let it go. It’s on him, not you.