Hi,
Thanks for sharing your story. I’m sorry you feel so alone and wonder if you would like to contact us at The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that offers support to people who are dealing with the addiction of a friend or family member.
We have experienced trained people called Family Friends who you might find it helpful to talk with and maybe you wont feel so on your own.They would also be able to let you know what other support is available in your area.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best to you.