[dodo]

Hi Genki,

How are you doing?

No man, should ever even raise a fist to a women. You can’t blame yourself else it will kill you inside.

Sometimes people change and you will always be fighting to find the man he used to be. If this guy loved you as much as you do him he would knocked all of this on the head for the sake of the relationship.

In my opinion I would let him go and find happiness somewhere else before you start wasting more and more years trying to help and protect this man. Cut of all ties and if it is meant to be he will come back clean away from drink.

This is the thing about drink, it’s cheap, it’s legal and you can nip 5 minutes down the road to get some however it is the most lethal of all drug in my eyes. I was talking to a drug/alcohol worker a few days ago and she said ‘ out of all the people she deals with, the people addicted to drugs aren’t to bad to deal with, but the worst are the alcoholics as they’re so aggressive and violent’

[genki]

Thank you so much, Dodo….I needed to hear those words. I can’t live like this anymore. Since I wrote, he showed up yesterday morning, just near the house while I was walking our dog. He was teary, suicidal, and on his way to the hospital. I should have let him go then…but I brought him back to the flat and called 111. We had mental health workers make a home visit and they’re coming back today. I feel so manipulated and so mad at myself…

This is the first time he has made the steps to get help. The thing is, all energy I had gained while he was away for 3 days, was just lost. I’m back to being drained…

I know what I need to do…I’m going to go back home for 6 weeks and find my centre and strength again. The earliest I can leave is November 15th when all of my work projects finish.

Thank you so much for reading my post and for your honest words. They gave me so much strength….(even though as I write this I’m blubbering….)

All the best to you…if there’s ever anything I can do to support and return the kindness…

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