[chezza123]

So here we go again. After a full 5 months clean my partner has decided to start with the “crack” again after a row Sunday morning he did the diadappearing act and turns up today no money smelly unshaven. Have sent him packing as this is my house and I really thought he had it sorted this time but now the nicer weather coming and Christmas dusted I don’t think I can repeat a year like last with it. I know he will be back in touch tmra he won’t av any money for 3 weeks so you know! I’m not rolling in it myself and I just don’t know if I have the energy nor will to go thru it all again as this has been going on for 6/7 years. Needed some time today on my own to try and get my head around this

[drained-and-tired]

Hiya,

Just want to say you are not alone. I am going through simular at the moment, my partner of 7 years decided to go on a binge the last few weeks, and returned home thisevening, hasn’t contacted for 2 days, hes phone has been off, I’ve been sorting all the childcare on my own aswell as going to work. Being worried sick to my stomach that he was dead in a gutter somewhere. Nearly reported him missing to the police. Then he comes in tonight and says he was nearly dead as he had some sort of fit and was robbed of hes phone and everything.(funny he still had hes car keys though) he is now currently asleep on the sofa. Doesn’t care about how I have felt over the last few days. Doesnt care how I’ve had to cope. So selfish!!!! Tommorow I have alot of thinking to do about my future. Hope your ok.

[chezza123]

Yes I’m ok and thank you for replying. Obviously I know how you feel you feel let down and just deflated. Fortunately my daughter is 19 and moved out so I don’t have the childcare aspect. It’s so difficult not wanting to give up and yet knowing deep down there comes a point when enough I enough. It’s the selfish side too and the tall tales that are so transparent too. His phone is a bone of contention with me as it’s off in my house but on when he’s out probably so the drug dealer “two white”” offers don’t come through in front of me the sleeping for a couple ov days gets me down too just coz he partied out things need seeing to you can’t just take to bed coz ur coming down off drugs. I hope that you are ok and the you figure out the right thing to do that is best for you I am struggling with my emotions so taking some quiet thinking time xx take care sending lots ov love

[drained-and-tired]

It’s defo a hard one on your emotions, it definitely is on mine. Well he has disappeared again after getting some money from the firm he works for. Havnt seen him now since Thursday morning about 11am. It’s so selfish & how they think its acceptable to just dissappear for days, he hasn’t even got a phone at the moment, so I can’t even contact him. Not one thought for me or he’s son. I’m guessing when the money runs out that’s when he will decide to come back. But I have decided enough is enough and he either wants to be part of hes sons life or he doesn’t, and if he doesn’t I will be packing hes things. It’s the sheer embarrasment of having hes work boss come to my house asking where he is. They don’t realise how much sh*t they cause they really don’t.

Well I hope you get things sorted for your own sake I find coming on here helps me alot when I’m going through a tough patch. Xx

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