Hi Katrina,
Thanks for sharing your story.I’m so sorry that you are having such a hard time especially in this lock down situation. I can understand why you feel so angry with your husband.
If you would like some support for yourself please contact us at The Icarus Trust. Our charity is set up to support people affected by their partner’s drug or alcohol use. We have trained people called family Friends, who are very experienced at helping people, like yourself, through these difficult times. If you get in touch I can put you in touch with one of them and talking things through might help you find a way forward.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck to you.