Ive been heavily addicted for years and split from my wife. We are now back together two kids an one on the way. Even tho i risk losing my family again i still take sniff. I do it alone and dont buzz just go quiet an sit on my phone. My question is whats making me still do it when i no im going to lose my family again and it will destroy me. Why isnt that enough to stop me doing it? Hope this makes sense.