Hi fifi, thank you for sharing your story. Everyone here has a loved one with addictions and also some people in recovery offering support and advice.
My son has alcohol and cocaine addictions, thankfully he is in early recovery at the moment. He’s never been in rehab but even when he’s clean I always feel I’m walking on eggshells or looking over my shoulder.
I think your mind is so used to waiting for the next bad thing to happen, its kinda hard to switch that off. Almost like PTSD.
I’m no expert but that’s what it feels like to me.
Just follow the advice they are given – take each day at a time, don’t think too far ahead. Enjoy spending some positive experiences as much as possible.
I wish you both well.
Lx