[davidn]

I met my partner 5 years ago. He was homeless at the time. Just helping him at first until things changed and we became a couple after 12 months. He has a weed problem. Blames it on his life choices and such. I think he just likes the stuff. He’s said loads of times he wants to quit but it’s all just talk depending on his moods. He’s not been diagnosed with bipolar but he’s got all the symptoms.

He also has other personal issues I don’t want to get into. I have tried to help him get help. But he never goes back after the first session. It’s always the same story.

He’s on 40 quids worth a day. Sometimes more. Rarely less.

He gets up in a morning and he goes for a joint. Says he’s angry when he wakes up. Then it’s like that all day till he goes bed to sleep.

He has other addictions too. Like gambling. Etc.

Never off his phone playing games or watching YouTube or news channels.

We’ve been engaged 3 years next month

Supposed to married within the first year. But usual story. It ready for marriage.

I left more partner for him as I thought it was real. But most the time I feel I live a lie. I’m just convenient.

We set up a business together but that failed after it was getting of the ground. He needed to much of my time to help him to run it. He wasn’t ready and I needed my full time job to support us.

My life revolves working, cleaning up after him and being alone most the time.

We don’t go out as he has social anxiety issues. Hates going out for meals or shopping. Usually just rides out that I find boring.

I feel so alone. I get up on my own and go bed on my own most the time.

I feel trapped. Tried splitting up but he just keeps coming back. Usually same old promises that never happen.

Now he didn’t even pretend to make promises to change

Just comes back and we just ignore everything. Issues are never talked about it sorted out. So it just festers.

My life just seems so depressing. No it is depressing. And I can’t seem to change things for me.

Any advice guys

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