Well this morning everything came to an end , he told me he hasn’t wanted to be with me for a long while, he doesn’t find me attractive and me having kids is a problem, was very nasty and cold, i do believe him, yes he is a coke addict and that has its own issues but I do believe him when he has said this , utterly heartbroken I thought i was ready for it seems I wasn’t, he text me 10 mins ago Said I’m right it is all about the coke now and needs to sort his life out but he is sorry he didn’t tell me earlier he didn’t want to be with me , some people will think aw well he being honest it’s not his fault he has an addiction but he chose to lead me on and play pretend which is one of the most horrible things you can do to someone, feel broken but I suppose time will heal that , but I’m no longer coming on the forum but i wish evryine good luck xx