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The names are fictitious to protect my family who would be very shocked that I am doing this and I don’t want to bring shame on them but I don’t think that we are experienced enough to deal with this and my girl needs professional help

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She works for a charity for gods sake I know she is not evil it is the drink doing this and I know I’ve got to fix it but it is so hard being the strong one and carrying on with everyday life because we have to survive, it is a long time since I have felt such despair to know that I have to let my daughter go and not know if she will make it safe through the other end.

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I will not engage from the latest hate attack by text, I have advised her the numbers to help her and respectfully asked her to think about it for her issues with me, I have also advised her that I am currently receiving advice and support – I will not engage she had to take responsibility for her own actions I cannot make her do anything that she doesn’t want to do, I cannot bully her, I cannot be aggressive towards her – I am asserting myself and taking control of my life and protecting my family too

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More accusations, I repeated my advice on counselling, I told her that she is not the beast the alcohol and issues are I hope she sees

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No she doesn’t and neither does my son who hardly drinks have to accept it and get on, things start dying inside u slowly don’t they but I will draw strength from adversity

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How can I tell you son that for all the thoughts hatred that you have don’t turn your back on your granddad, the man who saw his daughter in law struggling with her walking stick at the shops and came and carried her bag for her and let her hold his arm and walk slowly back to the car, the man who had two portions of cottage pie and loved every mouthful, the man who stood and did the washing up because I had cooked, the man who liked being in his house and felt comfortable in his living room with his dated furniture surrounded by his memories feeling relaxed because all the shit that had been left around the living room by your sister had been removed and put into a bag for your sister to take care of, your sister who is denying she has an alcohol problem and is convincing you that the fault lies with me and your dad, I am not telling lies I am not telling lies I am not telling lies

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Amidst all of this chaos here I sit sobbing away to Tammy Wynette’s no charge but I am also smiling because I know the pair of them would piss themselves laughing at it, am I offended by this thought, no not at all it shows that we can still laugh if it is only to be memories then so be it

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