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So last Wednesday my fiancé attempted to take his own life. He was very nearly successful in his attempt – he had text a friend who managed to get in touch with family and his mom got to the house in literally the nick of time before permanent damage was caused. He was sectioned and placed in a mental health facility that specialises in suicide. He can’t really have visitors because of Covid but I’ve been in touch by phone. He’s obviously now been clean for a week but his family and he are talking as if he is now “cured.” Having lived with his gambling, drinking and suspected drug taking for the last few years, I am more sceptical. I get that the extremes he went to would be scary but it surely isn’t just an off switch and now he’s not addicted any more. Anyone else had any experience of anything like this? I don’t even really know how to react when I see him as I am kind of just numb to it almost. If anything, I’m really angry. I know this is normal (I’ve done lots of googling) but I’m angry and sad and I’m confused. I understand that my inability to understand his thinking is normal but I feel really hard hearted and cruel for being angry with him at the same time. Any insights?

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