I really feel for you. My partner of 7 years has been addicted to cocaine for about 3/5 years he once went 5 weeks clean but when he had a bad day went back to it. He says he really wants to stop and gets suicidal but he doesn’t seem to deal with stress well at all. Last year I broke down and told his family at first they were trying to support him and get him help but they have now given up. There are sometimes when I feel so skin. I can’t really offer any advice but I know what you are going through