Hi Cyninac,
I’m so sorry to read your heartbreaking post. What an awful time you are having. Please contact us at The Icarus Trust as we could offer you some support.
We are a charity that helps people who are having to deal with the impact of a family member’s addiction. If you get in touch you could talk with one of our experienced trained people. Talking with someone who understands how you are feeling might be a help. This is a free service.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the very best to you.