I really feel sad for you. it is horrible feeling so at a loss. Would it help to speak with people who would understand? if so please contact The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that is there to give support to people who are having to deal with situations like yourself. if you contact us you could speak with one of our experienced trained volunteers which might help you to see where to go next.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope that you can get some support.