Hi, I have just joined and after reading your story felt compelled to write, I have been with my husband 25 years, he has too battled with addiction for most of his life, he had been back on smack and crack twice but for the last 11 years been much more stable and things settled down nicely, then he got given some Valium which make him extremely unstable and we are off again with smack etc and this time I am finding it really really hard to cope with, oh yes it was bad other times but somehow coming out of the blue like it has is killing me