[mislead-wife-of-an-a]

I’m literally going out of my mind. Its beginning to be so hard for me to function. I found out 2 years ago that my husband is using cocaine. He has times where he does well for months and then boom, he blows money and gets high. I feel like I’m at my breaking point. He keeps saying he chooses his family over the drugs but I’m just tired of dealing with it. It’s like as soon as we are in a great place, he comes with a gut punch. He works hard and takes care of the family until he starts to benge. Moments like now he benges all weekend, gets high, drinks and spend unnecessary money and then comes home sunday to go to work monday. I cant deal with it anymore. I have told him time and time again I dont want to deal with any of this but he keeps giving me false hope. I love my husband but I’m fed up with this. I didn’t expect our marriage to be like this. He hid this addiction until after we got married, I feel so blindsided. This was not supposed to be my life. I just want to get a divorce, how could I let this happen. My children are seeing this. They dont deserve this. I’m supposed to be able to protect them. How could a person be so evil and act like someone they aren’t.???

[kel1]

Hey, how are things for you now? Unfortunately this drug changes people characters so much that they become unrecognizable. It’s awful and I’m sorry you are all having to go through this, especially with what’s going on In the world right now.

Sadly tho, the drug will always come first! Family rarely wins, unless he uses that as an external motivator to get help. In other words he has to want help. Sometimes that can takes years. The pull of that drug is just to powerful and he would require support from professionals.

The only thing I can suggest is to get in contact with Al Anon – they’re a service which helps families that are associated with someone taking substances. They helped me to “take a step back” and focus on myself, because believe me your husband will pull you down into their chaos.

Cocaine is a destructive drug which is the road to ruin. It absolutely ruined my family and I’m still picking up the pieces.

I’m here if you need to talk

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