Hi Soos,
Thank you for posting and sharing how you are feeling about your husband’s alcoholism. It’s really sad that this is affecting the mental health of both you and your son.
I’m sorry that you feel so depressed. I wonder if you have been able to talk to your gp to get some help for yourself.
If you would like to talk with someone who would understand please get in touch with us at Icarus Trust. We are a charity that supports people dealing with addiction of a family member. You could talk with one of our trained and experienced people who may be able to help you.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website
http://www.icarustrust.org
I really hope that you can get some help for yourself.
Good luck to you and your family.