[lostboy]

I watched my sons mother die from an operation , soon after that my son was diagnosed with cancer and i watched him battle through that, he is fine now but i just dont know how to be anymore.

Ive had people tell me ” we all lose someone” , it has affected every aspect of my life, i drink and take drugs too much and dont know my limits, i have embarrassed myself, i cannot hold down a job for longer than a year, i have got myself into debt, i have lost my home.

I feel so dissapointed in myself, i have tried to get help but because i was working it was hard to get the time off as the counsellor could only see me at specific times and places.

I do not give up easily but it just seems like i never get anywhere

[cmxx]

Dear Lostboy,

I am really sorry to hear about your loss. If you are ever struggling or feeling alone I think you should talk to the Samaritans on 116 123. Their helpline is anonymous and non judgemental, and it really helps to have a chat.

Best wishes,

Clara

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