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My partner has been battling with cocaine for some time now and his habit doesn’t just effect him it effects all those around him, myself included. I have tried to be supportive, I have tried the soft approach, the aggressive, the crying, I have tried everything that I possibly can. I love this man so very much and it breaks my heart to think that what he is doing could possibly kill him. I worry non stop, wondering has he done it and although every time I catch him out for it and he promises me he can change I know it isn’t something he is in control off but that doesn’t make it any less upsetting and I often ask myself why am I not enough for him to stop?! The feelings of hopelessness and emptiness are a regular part of my day and I have become depressed as a result of this but will not confide in anyone as this all did not come to light until I was 6 months pregnant, I now have a beautiful 3 month old and I know that although he doesn’t do it around her that he shouldn’t be apart of her life while he has any dealings with it but at the same time I feel torn because I don’t want to give up on him and him get worse but for my own sanity and my daughter I am thinking that is the only way. Has anyone else been in a similar situation and can anyone give me any advice?

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