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Im 21 years old. Both my parents have been addicted to drugs most their lifes. Since i was born my dad has been in and out of prison for drug dealing. He was addicted to herion before he got sent down. Then my mum started taking herion aswel to try and feel happy. I remeber going to some strangers house when i was little with my mum. She left me to play in the play ground while she was in the house jacking up she couldnt hear me knocking on the door and crying because i needed the toilet and i ended up wetting my self. My dad came home from prison and both of them were still using till he got sent back to prison again and then social services got envoled. My mum went to rehab and i got passed round the family. When they both came home again we went back to being a little family but it didnt last long. They started aurging all the time and enventually it started getting voilent. Me and my mum escaped to my grandparents house near the seaside and my mum managed to keep clean. After a while my mum got given a house in a little village and i started to enjoy a normal childhood. When i was about 7 years old my dad took my mum to court so he could see me again. We started seeing each other through a contact centre. And then i started staying with him and my stepmum every other weekend which i hated as all we would do is be in the car all day long while he visited his clients, drug dealing . When i started secondry school my mum was diognoised with bipoler and she started drinking heavily and smoking weed. The only way i thought i could cope with it, was to start drinking and eventually my drinking got stronger and stronger till i would pass out and forget about my life. I couldnt tell anyone what was happening as i would fear that they would judge me then i met my fiancee and he helped me get my life sorted. I still have trouble telling people how i feel. Currently my dad is waiting to go back to prison and my mum is still drinking and smoking weed and i have a feeling she is doing cocaine but i really hope she isnt. Will my life get any better or will it be the same and i dont think i can cope any longer. i worry that my parents wont be around to see their future grandchilden to grow up or wont be alowed to see them can i really trust them.

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