Awful that you are going through this. Despite all of it – still it is possible to be happy. The stories here will help you find your way. Kids grow so fast and they need you to be strong and happy., Try to take the focus off him (he has to sort himself out on his own) and focus instead on your kids and yourself. I have such great memories with my kids – when my husband was at his worst. I believe that the normalcy that my kids and I were living everyday helped my husband get off and stay off the evil drug cocaine. Nar-anon is a great place for support as well.