[jema]

I’ve been on heroin since i was 15 fell in with the wrong crowd i was on an off gear till i was 19. Went to prison for shop lifting then came out on a methadone script got together with an old mate i got pregnant had a little boy then 10 months later had another little boy. The boys dad started doing gear again we split up i moved back with my mum. Then we got back together and he asked me if i wanted a bit of herion i said no but in the end i had a hit and then i was back to wear i started an addict again got arrested months later for theft social service got involved and i lost my boys luckily my mum and dad took custody of them and im able to see them everyday. I got pregnant again by mistake and i was stupid to think i would be able to keep him but my mum took him on aswell. I’m still on a methadone script im not using anymore and working on getting my children back with me. I nearly had a re-lapse as my dad just passed away on the 25th September two days before his birthday but i stopped and thought about my mum and brother and sister and my boys. I just hope my boys will be able to forgive me when there older to understand. But im happy they are with my mum as i know they are being looked after and are happy and loved that’s all that matters to me. I know i failed them as a mother and that’s had to come to terms with.

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