[blossom20]

Hi all

I’m just looking for some advice

I think I’m going mad I have never felt as low as I am now

It all started when I went to a theme park for a overnight stay for Halloween with my best friend a belated birthday present

He knew I was going and was beginning to get twitchy

When I was there I txt him and attempted to call him and said good night

The next day I woke up to verbal abusive txt msgs asking me where I was who I was with and like he is stupid that I was going to bed

That he actually didn’t care any more and I’m basically a liar

This obviously upset and I told him this

He then blamed it on being drunk ( he had been to rehab last year)

He then went on a drug and drink fuelled binge and said basically it was my fault as I had made him unhappy by telling him he ruined my day

Basically switching it all around when he had initially caused all of this with his txt msgs

I’m still not happy with him four weeks on

This is not the first time this has happened and I’m sure it won’t be the last where he ruins my time with my friends and family

I actually can’t take any more.

I’ve spoken to him and tried to explain that this isn’t the first time and he has worn me down he doesn’t get it

Apparently it just happened because he got drunk

I again at the weekend tried to talk to him he started punching the walls and screaming at me

That I’m making him sad

What about me

Why has he continually done this

He doesn’t get that it’s not the first time this has been happening for four years

I’m now like a shadow, fatigued and feeling alone

Am I the crazy one ?

I don’t feel like I can talk to my family and friends as he has upset me to many times

If anyone has any advice that would be great

He just doesn’t get what he has done

[leogreen95]

Hi Blossom20,

I myself am an alcoholic and drug abuser and find that part of the addiction is looking for an excuse for your actions weather it be your stressed at work, angry about absolutely anything or just having a bad day. It sounds like he may be quite possessive and have some insecuritys their that need to be addressed. Is he attending any counseling sessions ?, i found that I was hiding my emotions and as much as I kept admiting I had addictions I was still not acknowledging how insecure I felt about myself hence the drinking and lashing out. I cant give you to much advice as everyone is different but I would definitely go down the counseling route and also for yourself to make sure your coping OK. My mum done some counseling to try and understand me more but better to support her. Its not easy being in love with someone with addiction so make sure your looking after yourself! No matter that he is the one with the addiction you can’t let yourself be treated bad or you yourself with start to get mental health issues and will get yourself in a bad way. Hope all goes well and again sorry I can’t give better advice,

Take care.

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