Hi whitelightening, I didn’t want to pass your post without replying. Very sorry for your loss of your dad, you deserve the chance to grieve properly xx There are lots of people here in a similar situation and Adfam could point you in the right direction of where you could get some proper support if you haven’t already or Icarus Trust I think also. My mum was in your situation and stuck it out for similar reasons for many years – don’t let him drag you down, stay strong and I really hope you find some support on here xxx