[pete]

I am a abuser of alcohol. I would like to say that without judgment, and understanding that there is a lot to learn out there and I am aware that everyones journey is different, I would to offer a possible bit of help to those that are struggling with alochol addiction.

Story: I have been a drinker and a drunk for alot of my life. I have managed to ruin 7 relationships, partners, family, friends. I have sank, moved and repeated the experiences. Alot of the time I spent not understanding, or feeling assamed at my actions, then repeating.

Latley I have found that I have had a bit of control, having a family finally and a tollerant partner helps, but I have managed to break the trust of the persons closest to me. Medically I have called for help from doctors, but truthfully I was to ashamed to look for mental help.

I want to get beter, but my idea of better is feeling that i can handle alcohol without sabriaty. this is problematic because then there is always temptation. the wanting of more.

this story gets long and ive had many bad occurences of screw ups, nothing has really changed except mey relatiohsips, and my desire to not be addicted. I believed that my addiction was from trauma, and if I would explore this and resolve my trauma then maybe I wouldnt be addicted. Though I never saught councelling because I liked being drunk, thereby perpetuation of issues. and reacurence of drinking and being drunk.

But I recently through youtbue saught out information about addiction. I came across a TED Talk about alcohol abuse and addiction and it seemed to click something in me.

this click was for me and im not saying it will work for others but if you give it a glance maybe it can change something, because I honestly dont really get it. Not the information presented, I love education, I am a believer in more is powe and control over the slef is possible if you can explore avenues and accept that life is complex.

This talkwer explained how brain chemistry created endorphins, that the feelings of addiction were semented at a point and the drug of choice enchanced specific addictive substances to ride higher then other. WWhich is why people can drink coffee and alcohol (both drugs, both effecting the body differently yet addiction to only one may occur). THe body remeber and learns and can addapt and promote endorphins, my body pushes great desire to drink more even when i hate the taste, more reward. BUt the understanding that there is a drug that blocks the synapissi that can triger the endorphins means that there is a way the body can learn not to crave.

I DID NOT TAKE THIS DRUG. I would like to be very clear that I am not supposing people look to drugs to aid addiction treatment, in my case and only my case I listened believed that there seemedd to be a logical solution, then the next day I had the desire to by alcohol, i bought the alcohol, I had 2 drinks, and I for some reason had no desire to drink more.

THis has never happened. Understanding possibly a reason for my addiction made something inside me change. And I really wish I was academic enough to propose a thesis on the situation, but all I can recomened to those that have tried alot with no success that information will allways benifit the smart, and maybe understanding a possible solution, or chemisty of the brain could potentially awaken an idea or solution to addictive problems.

again I would like to clearly state I am not proposing people go uot and take drugs, that I have a solution that helps all, or that I speak for anyone but myself. I have battled with addiction for a long time, I am not perfect, and I am not solved, but I feel better, I dont feel the same as I once did, and I am sure my opinion might change in the future, but I was excited by the prospect of this helping me.. and therefore maybe others if they gave the story a read.

the ted talk Im not sure I can promote but I typed in the search bar you tube TED: how i overcame alcoholism.

[worriedsister]

Thank you some hope !
my partner has a drink and drug problem but feels drink is the main issue.
he says he can take or leave crack however I’m not so sure.
it’s devastating!
I can’t take much more it’s killing me as well him.

well done and keep on your road of recovery xx

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